Becoming all that I was intended to be….

  • November 3, 2007

There’s a part of me that keeps pushing ahead… that is inspired to run marathons… to find the highest mountain and climb… to feel alive… to breathe……

Every day presents a new challenge… new obstacles. And though I have had many hardships, although I have had life shattering heartbreaks… I hold onto the faith that I keep inside that tomorrow presents a new world for me to discover, and that yesterday was a stepping stone to the future that waits ahead of me. For all that I have learned in this journey, prepares me for what lay ahead in my quest for a happy and fulfilled tomorrow.

We should not live with any regret, and I have had many… but who I am today is from the experiences and journey that I have made through my lifetime… every relationship… every hurt… every happiness… every sorrow… every challenge… every mistake… every accomplishment… has brought me to today… and to a promise of hope for a better tomorrow… that, that which does not kill me… makes me stronger and offers me another opportunity to make a difference in my life.

I guess I had to write this… because I am on a path of enlightenment and ready to move on with the destiny that awaits my path… and for the people that it will bring. I will take joy in my sorrow… and rejoice in my grief… for it is in the cocoon of my experience that lay the understanding of self and the knowledge to create a better world… starting with me.

Refusing now to live a life of loss… I discover that all that is gained from emotions and experiences is perseverance. As I have often said, “sometimes you just gotta be happy”… So I will try to live a productive life… and a life of distinction, as I continue as a passenger on this earth.

I am strong… I am living… and I am experiencing life as it happens.

Even as a fleeting memory, the love I have lost was as it would be… but I will treasure it… and be thankful that even in the smallest dosages, as I have felt it in my life… fills me for a lifetime… I learn to live with that love and loss, store it on a shelf in my heart and then leave it behind me as I continue looking forward… I am ready for the future… and moving on from this place. And perhaps that “perfection” in that moment of being in love… will grace me with another memory one day… and perhaps be rewarded with the gift of that feeling for a lifetime as I am joined with a partner…

So I am hopeful and I am good right now… and moving into the next phase of my life. It’s gonna be okay… I’ll be okay… and I will hold onto the faith that love will open it’s arms to me again.
“Things don’t go wrong and break your heart so you can become bitter and give up. They happen, to break you down and rebuild you up, so you can be all that you were intended to be”…